Inspiration isn't really a straight path. Its more like a mountain. You know, peaks and lows.

and I'm verbose, normally.

Normally, so verbose.

Like the new Grey's Anatomy sound track.

No I'm not LIKE the track. I like it.

Who's reading this anyway?

*shrugs*

h.a.p.p.i.n.e.s.s :)

Thank you God.

For

-the strength you have given

-the blessings you've opened my eyes to

-all the behind-the-scenes miracles 

-the power of positivity

-the love in laughter

-the joy in music

-all the faculties (often) taken for granted

For the realization of strength, power, light.

I thank you with a humble heart.

I thank you for I am grateful.

I am blessed by your healing touch.

My strongest prayers and love.

The Lawyer :)

Lets start the 'new year' with appreciating some beautiful gifts in people.

Just, taking out 20 minutes to note the goodness people are capable of.

Seth Girl and I.

We get uhh blunt(?) when no one can hear us.

She's smart, hard-working and honestly I have the highest respect for her determination.

She's the kind of person who genuinely believes (and proves) that nothing is out of reach and no goal impossible to accomplish.

Her special gift(s)? 

Insane ability to laugh at herself

Olympic level walking speed

High rise ponytails making

Even higher pitched screams (across football fields sometimes! or a busy road!)

Brutal honestly with herself (and others, if they ask for it in order to follow it)

Genuine ambition

Unparalleled focus and determination

and just overall being true to who she is and true to her family (and a few lucky friends)

She's a strong woman.

Call her a girl if you want (we're still 21 you know)

But something inside of her echoes great strength of spirit.

She has a solid value system (sometimes stubborn even :D)

What I treasure (most)?

Honestly, how she's completely unapologetic about the way she is.

It may drive you MAD or irritate you or make you love her more.

She never feels even a sliver ashamed of the person of that she is OR the values she espouses.

A true inspiration as a friend and very much loved.

Can't wait till 15th May to strut around in matching stilettos :D

God Bless.

Love.

2010, okay

New post up on The Seeker

Speechless

What exactly is so seductive about power?

Alan Shore.

Need I say more?

;-)

Intertwining

It isn't that I haven't been writing. Its that I've been writing and deleting because nothing seems to 'fit'.

I mean how Long can i ramble on about blue nail paint?

about

my lovely doggies

another trip to Gujarat (ahmedabad, with family no less)

confusion wrt studies

indecision wrt career

astrological predictions (and faintness)

love (and sometimes lack thereof)

tanning (and not so much)

stereotyping

objectification

patriarchy

feminism

politics(?) ...(politics of representation)

anger

hurt

hope

spirituality (*beams*)

ashram visits (:D:D:D)

the divine love

okay, barring the last three which i am Obviously not done dealing with ... everything else is so... blah.

not mediocre.

but 'done'

its been said, written, thought, analyzed by tons of people.

tons of people

tens of thousands of people

and twice, by me. (read the whole blog. it gets repetitive)

So what this about anymore?

Post vow of not-needing-appreciation-from-the-material-world, what does this blog stand for?

Am i still decrypting my very blah surroundings?

analyzing my musty old mind?

ISNT THIS SUPPOSED TO GET OVER NOW?

i saw Julie and Julia, fantastic movie.

that apart, it had a woman writing a blog about her attempts at cooking X number of dishes from Y book within One year.

The year got over and she Stopped.

Target set. Accomplished. then Period. The End. 

based on a true story btw, watch it.

Point is, what if a blog is more than One aspect of your life.

What if its the story of hiccups and unstable growth.

What if its murky and sunshine-filled.

What if its honest and yet, hides Lots :D

What if the readers change, all the time.

What if, like the cliche goes, the only thing constant is inconsistency? 

What then?

What if my road, my path... goes winding on.......

and the destination?

What if the destination is a speck on the horizon and i've forgotten my superpowers-backpack?

What if i don't know how to run the marathon but time has told me i have to.

Im not a bundle of contradictions.

There isn't a fancy term to describe me.

Im not made of unusual metals.

Im a seeker.

I seek because i want to learn, i want to know, i want to confirm.

Im a seeker because this voice in my head tells me... i wont reach the horizon by simply walking. I'll need to pick out the signs, know what im looking for. 

Someone deep inside knows, its my time to seek.

and Voila, the blogs have merged :D 

dum da da dum

You know what I dislike the most, still?

Something that hasn't changed since I was 14. Rather, my idea of it hasn't changed ever since I can remember experiencing it.

Namely, negativity.

Yeahbabay. Disguise it in any way you please, but it still comes down as one thing I will not hold on to nor will I keep near me. Period.

Ohyeah.

So So So much left to do.

-collecting 1st month grant. PARTY.

-talking to mentor. YAY.

-tutoring. haha.

-isssh-studying.

-making crafts project, shush. secret.

-buying monopoly. YAY.

-meeting xa (FINALLY)

-watching 2012.

-catching up with b after tutoring.

lalalalalalalalalalala.... what a wooooonderful world :)

*background music swells up*