Moment of Truth :)

Since I'm interested in talking about Light.. here is the Light of Truth.

and it's not just when I'm unwell.. I deeply suspect cunning biology. I'm sure its insidious presence is the Sole Reason WHY

- i love dinky little pens the size of my little finger
- i used to love brightly coloured..feathered..lit.. extravaganzas of pens.. okay, i may still...
- i think of colours as "happy" or not
- certain gestures in advertisements not only speak but sing to me..

actually none of that may be the product of biology.. but i'm sure biology Does play a part somewhere.

so now i leave this brilliant little comic strip here for you to love and connect with.. and maybe we'll ask ourselves

why outward gestures of independence often have to be so alienating..
would i still be independent if a sister, not a boyfriend, made me soup?
what Is real strength..
what does it mean, to me, to be a woman..

Toodles and tralala..
may we all feel the lightness of love :)

Finders and Seekers :)

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the Courage to change the things I can
and the Wisdom to know the difference.

The Serenity Prayer


to Fly i must cut the notion that wings must exist
i must cut the notion that i have wings to cut
i must cut the i in that notion
and forget what is and isn't to cut
and maybe then keep the wind company

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the sun isn't noticed because of cloudless days
but the memory of rain lashed afternoons
watching the trees sway

the sun isn't noticed because of sky blue mornings

but the journey through grey stormy nights
and the thunder alongside

the sun is the light, craved in its absence
and feasted on sight
the way isn't truly sought till you've experienced being completely lost

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for we go on..

i may make mistakes
on my own vastra, trip
decide to spin like a top
and rest dizzy by a stream

take a road more twisted
convoluted
get distracted by the trees
the sunshine, the breeze
the promises, i try to make others keep

it will hurt to step on stones
to take a longer route
to momentarily lose my head
but i will walk on ahead

only promises made to self will i insist upon being kept
forget how long it took
forget what made me linger
for before finding you
i will surely lose me

upppity-date

Today i saw the shadows dance
it reminded me of lazy days, comfortably streched out on the grass watching the clouds float by
or sometimes, the eagles swoop up and down with the currents...

I have to read a Lot these days..
I'm dancing through the books actually.. in a frenzy to reach that magical number 14...
scribbling my thoughts about heroes, friendship and well... values... on margins
and with no numbered pages to tag... I'll have to trek back through all these books and make finer..
more detailed notes.

Soon I'll continue with more theory based writings.. but till then, I shall let myself get swept away.

Bubblegum and a sunrise to you all..

Template Tales

I need a fresher, sunnier, lighter Template.. Suggestions via LINKS will be riveting, glorious, fantastic, Welcome :)

To proceed to other trying tales..
the (naturally)self imposed reading-list is actually seeing some progress..
The thriving Book Club helps :)

The formidable list includes (but is still not limited to)
Indira
War and Peace
Lord of the Rings (did i hear an exasperated "finally!"?)
and my favorite secret awesome book that I'm obsessed with and actually Enjoying reading..
the first two are just to pry me away from sitcoms and force myself to read something "literary".. or "relevant".. or "serious".. or something I would never read for fun but need to since I am pursuing a career in academics. Grr.

Also, Umrao Jaan.. if flipkart can ever re-stock it. Book Club addition :)

Toodles

Courage

Exhibit (pronounced Egg-zhi-bit) A- Courage
B- More of above

There can be courage in almost every action.
in speaking Up. in silencing oneself.
in running fast, hard, aggressively. in pacing oneself.

there is Wisdom in knowing which is needed when...
and Courage in the ability to follow through...

in the words of Ehrmann "with all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world"

ah, these 'girl' hormones, itellya, make me well up each time..
to a life led with Courage and Faith.. Cheers fellow travelers!

of love, mush and much romance

if you are currently in the "every boy is a jerk" or "every girl is.. umm..bad?"... mood.. then S..l..o..w..l..y
browse away from this page.
because although i am as single as a mountain range or purple cloud or a horses tail.. umm.. ok..
because Although i am single.. my heart has just been 'aww-ed' out of its capacity and is urging me to
record this phenomenal feeling.

so a friend from college got married and omitted to mention fact or invite most of mutual friends.
but since we never had a personal connection, really. all was forgiven without it being ever requested.
the relevant thing is i chanced upon her and her Husbands (hahaha.. whoaaaa.. scary) facebook pages...
now she was always extremely private and happens to be the only girl in contemporary ever-evolving history
to have resisted the urge to put up her chuuda-adorned pictures of the ceremony..
luckily.. her husband (hahahhaaaaaaaaaaaa..) succumbed...
they had a reaaaaally long relationship with its long-distance-related break ups where she pranced around
and kissed cute Pakistani boys and I'm not sure if he did the same.. but back in 2010 when they were still sort-of-together.. again, no sordid details available due to aforementioned lack of real personal connection... BUT.. there was a picture posted by him then of their feet next to each other in the sand (presumably near a beach and not a sand pit for kids).. and he had written "These feet will walk back to you"

what 'aww-ed' me out was that it did come true.. making the "end" officially define the relationship as always.. but it felt like a "hey THIS is love" moment which are so very rare to come by...

with things splintering and cracking and disintegrating and blowing up like firecrackers at a billionaires daughters' wedding ... umm.. with relationships not working.. it is always a pleasant feeling to watch something (albeit from a safe distance).. reach maturity.. fruition.. bloom :)

also... please note that every single image of being 'single' i could find is never Alone..
mountains are piled up strong supporting each other (or at a really s.l.o.w pace pushing Into each other)
purple clouds always hang out with other light beings
and a horse tail is full of buddy-hair lounging about trying to hurt flies...
so what im trying to say is.. being single doesn't mean your life is outta-loou (pronounced the Canadian way)
it just means .. well it means different things for everyone
for me.. it means *shrugs*.. oh well. it is what it is.

Love Light and more Love to All