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I believe its been more than one person who has actually stopped me from deleting this giant diary entry over the years... It has traced my love-notsomuchlove relationship with people, music, books... academics.. I could go on.
But I'm yawning, and aching-with-post-organization-aches... This can be considered the bell that tolls for the exams in sight
It still feels like the last week of January.. hard to believe its nearly 3 weeks into Feb.
need-to-get-act-together Pronto.
and thus, seven and a half hours of sleep
:-)
love

fooooor fourteenth

At the risk of being utterly rejected by the intelligentsia... I like Valentines day!
I like the fact that its a day specially taken out for love
I like the joy that it is sure to bring to Someone (out there :) )
I like convincing people to buy chocolates for their first love (who they're still with..naturally)
I like the excitement that builds up through the day
and I refuse to conform to rejections of 14th Feb
I don't care if its cheesy and pink and red with mad shades of fluff...
How can I dislike something that has the potential to let loose all that joy?
and just to clarify.. Its not about receiving that giant teddy or dolphin...The idea Behind it.. the love that Prompts these gestures... thats what warms the heart
gotta love the love
With love for love

mumblemumble

Fell into the romantic curls that Lawrence once spun.
It had the infamous triangle... a man who loves a woman who loves a woman who is loved by the same woman. eh, yeah...something like that.
It would be nice to have a firecracker of a Professor to teach it...
If wishes were horses... lala

Reaaaally sleepy. swept the room. tired.
okay, *cough* ... cough hasn't eased up in a week...
did I mention sleepy?
Night ya'll
Love

Ps- sister university is apparently having this brilliant film festival.. check it out dilli wallahs
:)

Suns Day

How would I explain the sunshine blossoms?
The tinkling laughter provoked
The giggles frothing in recent memories
The skipping pace of the unfamiliar rhythm

because in telling others it would make more sense.
I keep my silence even as I speak.

Maybe?

The drafts folder seems to be growing
Attended one of those magical seminars that could hold my interest.. even felt compelled to go and speak to the writers... Good stuff...
and here I can't go beyond the first act of that melodious plotless play...
If only I could ravage writing out of my own reality.. now that, would be fun :)

Happy 2011 ketchup

Speaking of milestones.. The seed is beginning to sprout out through the ground
The journey has begun.. and I know the more car-miles I rack up.. the faster this motor will travel too...
To not lose the clarity
To all actions that have a positive intent

There you have it.. Resolutions

The Universal Problem, me thinks

One of the interesting things about life is that almost all of us, it appears, know it all.
We know when to shut up and when we should speak out
We know those who give us good tingles and those who give out unpleasant vibes
(of course that changes with time.. but at a given moment.. we know who feels 'right')
We know subtlety is good and being garish is bad (but our Idea of the two differ)
We know a good thing from a bad
We know a good person from a not so well intentioned person (towards us)
We may even know edible mushrooms from poisonous ones

SO why is it that we keep banging our heads on the same wall?
Expectations
Why do I expect when I know it reduces joy? (AOL, Childrens course, 2000)
Why do I expect when I know no one owes me anything and what I do for others is out of my free will (Learning, Since 2000)
Because I know that If I don't expect from people.. that makes me invincible (Click for definition by Dictionary.com) *grins...no I am Not being paid by them!*
If I don't expect
-nothing will surprise me.. reciprocation May make me happy.. ungratefulness will leave me untouched
Well thats it actually... its a one-step all-encompassing benefit.
And it can be applied to EVERY relationship in your life... no exceptions.
Neki kar, dariya mein daal (not to be confused with the indian spice dal)
Do good and chuck it in the river
ie. Don't expect anything to come of the effort you put in
also can be used to simplify relationships
Give your all if that is what makes you happy... but don't expect. Don't expect.
Its not because you're a doormat who is only good to give.. Give if it makes you happy... but if you truly want to stay happy.. Do not.. Do not *I beg you* Do not expect anything in return.

Now see I know all that
I have the key to permanent consistent round-the-clock happiness
Why is it then so hard to practice? eh?
solve that puzzle for me baby!
Solve that and not sudoku
Solve eeeeeeet.
Please