14th

dont really want to delve too deep into the whole purpose behind the world acknowledging the 14th of Feb as any different from the rest of the days.....but considering people are asking me my plan....n im dyin to unleash my bitterness ...i guess it'll be better to do it here ....OR i can simply choose to partcipate in a non-peaceful protest against V day....on the grounds that its corrupting our youth....heck, its corrupted me all right....i actually WANT a big (highly overpriced) bouquet of roses..n chocolates wouldent hurt either...but one of the few things that ive NOT learnt thru books but experience is....i shouldnt hold my breath....

do u remember those cheesy chain mails that used to be really popular a few years ago?....you know with the poems...

'someone somewhere is thinking of ur smile
n while thinking of it...feels that life is worthwhile
so whenever your sad....remember its true...
someone somewhere is thinking of you'...

i know...i remember it...how weird is that...or mayb my memory is just uber fantastic...
i would like to believe the latter...
so ...this poem just articulates what i actually believed in...
yes...i am considering the possibility that i was truly brain-deprived...
n it lead or enhanced the hope that someone would in fact want me ON the 14th!
n naturally before and after too but the 14th got blown WAY out of proportion and i would
go to sleep the night before thinking-about-red-roses-and-pretending-not-to-care-about-people-who-were-thinking-about-red-roses....only NOW!....
i dont know if you would call it cynicism welling from age/disappointed-the-night-after-the-dreaming-about-roses-night....but when i say i dont expect anything...i mean it...

here is the actual cause of sorrow.....i feel bad....bad that im missing out on the excitement...the whole feeling of it-may-happen...now extra grey cells make it almost impossible cuz i KNOW BETTER!....my brain and logic have CONVINCED me!...n thats what makes me sad....all expectations have been stomped on....i can hope no more....to the fun ive said 'bye-bye'...

would write more but gotta go change....(family time)...
live love and well....just live and love!...muahhhs!