and i thought i had Writers Block...

Random NOW thoughts

1. i HATE catering to an audience. Hate it.
2. the dreams i have are not only unusual ...they're also abnormal and embarassing..
*covers face with grimy hands*
3.my hands are grimy
4.i got them 'done' today
5.i am not happy
6.people are mean
7.im not happy cuz people are mean
....to me
8.are we allowed to be insensitive?
9.i dont see a 'be sensitive' police anywhere
10.even if there was one...it would probably be corrupt
and let all the rich kids do what they want
11.im a cynic
12.just today i told someone 'im not a cynic'
13.i told a lie
14.is it okay to lie if you dont know your lying?
15.is it okay to tell the truth?
16.is it 'normal' to forget what you've talked to someone about?
17.considered strange if you hate someone cuz you love em too much?
18.that red earmuff has gold spangles in it
19.i miss the pink one...it was prettier
20.i wanna get a personality test
21.since i cant figure out the world i might as well start with me
22.i miss someone
23.i wish i didnt
24.i wish i also knew who
25.i miss something
26.also wish i didnt
27.i want to be whished away
28.i want to get a call
29.i want my phone to have a long lasting battery
30.iwish i didnt misspell 'battery' each time i spell it
31.i love b for giving me word web...who knew it would be so useful
32.i miss b
33.why are we scared of taking names?
34.i dont want people to read what i write
35.but i wanna be a writer
36.how will i earn tons of bread?
37.how?
38.will i starve to death begging for a frie?
39.i dont want people to get to me
40.no one
41.i dont like people who PISS me off
42.cuz its PISSING off and makes me feel like hitting them
43.HARD
44.its a testament to my control that i dont
*pushes voodoo doll under bed with foot*
45.how can people i normally like irritate me?
46.i guess i just dont like change
47.or aggressiveness..which is strange cuz im that way
48.and im also turned on by it
49.i dont like wimps
50.some part of me still likes who i shouldnt
51.and always will
52.im a fatalist, romantic, feminist and easily irritatidist(yehp)
53.the above was in no particular order...stream of consciousness
54.i like being me
55.im pretty enough
56.smart enough
57.hot enough (trust me)
58.have mood swings
59.also a rebel who doesnt stop at 5o points as others would
60.im a secret sore loser
61.not a wannabe
62.more a 'willbe' 'am' but never 'was'
63.i have a queer mind
64.am fascinated by omar
65.like the impossibly queer and willbes
66.dislike phonies (but not those who are nice to me)
67.surprisingly blunt and shockingly private all at once
68.its impossible to define me...only me....all the rest of you are easy peasy
69.i have an ego...a big one
70.have been told it edges-out-god...still retained mine
71.if only cuz some people dont want me to have one
72.i dont like them and never will