Yakety Yak

Maybe I'll tell you a strange thing. I'm growing into the understanding that life is not about looking for those 4 leaved clovers and magical rainbows... but its not for the reasons I presumed I would. Its not because of heartbreak, cynicism or lack of faith.. Ironically enough... its BECAUSE I have faith.
Only what I had faith in Then was the hope of finding that elusive clover if I looked hard enough in the garden (Blyton ruined me for realism :) ).. What I believe in now is a different purpose because even if I Do find that clover and it grants me ONE wish... that wouldn't come close to making me permanently happy... Fact- I was looking for a more stable solution and one that went a little deeper... Oddly enough it too was "Seek and you shall find"
but When I changed What I was looking for.. I got my answers :)

Once Upon A Time this blog was about noting down the changes in my life.. mapping them as it were.. I feel its been out of the loop when really major changes Have been happening.. Destiny presented me with a path.. My choice was to take it... my Love, keeps me going.
Its because each time I come close to what the path Really does..the part of me it touches.. how it awakens me to my responsibilities..duties...solutions..Each time I close in on how this has truly changed my life... I am filled with inexpressible gratitude towards .. everyone. Because I must have done something right to be blessed with this...and for me to do that something right...many many *maaaaany* people, words, ideas, actions must have all contributed.. So I want to thank you all today.
You have contributed to my happiness regardless of the circumstances in which we've come into contact. I am eternally grateful for that... and I thank you.
I wish you all deep love and happiness.
God Bless

Finally, the blog has been (truly)updated :)
Also academically... things have certainly not built up as expected really.. at least not according to the Plan.. but you know what, *shrugs*, thats just life (and really ill researched work on my behalf :P..whoops)..but regardless, there is still an impulse to tug on a different string, just for a little bit, and play with a different subject *maaaaybe for a little while*
Like
Indian History
Archaeology
Astronomy *not so much, I just like the idea of staring at the night sky*
Astrology (for kicks)
But just take a break from the whole Literature as a career path..booo..
I'm open to toying with Scriptwriting, Directing, Painting.. anyone interested in paying an amateur to handle their meaty professional project? :)
Ahh... get back to me here if yooou ARE :)
No link...just the blog.

But yeah..wee bit frustrated with picking up books like medicines and just swallowing them whole... but I AM totally recapturing the thrill with Catch 22... my daily indulgence (not prescribed ie. )... fantastic with the potential to be depressing (what with all the...content and all) BUT saved each time by its sheer ridiculous quality.. I mean..Bravo.
You may all have read it when you were fourteen.. let me enjoy my happy time :)
God Bless and may all your Positive dreams come truuuuueeee :D

back, and how! :D

I think it is important we all (I) recognize the implications of what is happening.
Yesh. Right this very second. Now and now and now and now.
This is me risking life, limb and sunshine(!?!) to blog when i Should be curled up in a corner with J.Swift (sooooo i had to finish all four books by lunch and i haven't finished even one. Sooooo what?)........

But i realized somewhere around skimming through 'humans are bad, humans stink, humans are cruel people who don't have any manners' (umm, paraphrased... naturally)....that i miss blogging!
Like i reaaaaaaaally really do.
i miss the thrill of watching these words just pop up out of nowhere and typing out thoughts i had no ideaaaaaaa i had gurgling up somewhere in my unconscious.
Plus its FUN! D:....oi, odd smiley.

Or maybe im just tired of reading what Writer X has written and then reading what Critic A, B, C feel about what X says. Blah.
A teensy bit left-out am i :(
but-where-did-MY-opinion-go?
*puppy face*
does-no-one-Care?
sniff.

The answer is 'no'.
Unless i hit it beeeeeeg(big) with some supah-cool theory, im a nobody.
but but but...i am YOUNG
"I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is short..."
Okay, so Butterfly Boucher invades the mind :)

And alsooo, i managed to watch the last few episodes of
(wait for it)
The Rachel Zoe Project (oooooooh!)
Not too bad actually if you're a secret devil wears prada fan..
i only wish she would be a lil meaner to her assistants..
makes for more spicy Teee-Veeeee :D
Somehow i have always(always always always) wanted to actually work
at a terrible job (ie. high pressure) and CRIB about the horrendous working hours...
while secretly getting a huge kick out of the deadline-was-5-mins-ago panic!
Yipee. AGENDA!
But i know, realistically, i'd get yawn-bored or just yawn-yawn-tired in about 3 weeks.

So ANYWAY, its a very predictable rut-thing as of now..
wake up...mooch around...study...talk to Sw...whine...lunch...study...power-nap-for-too-long-to-be-called-a-power-nap...study...Teeeee-veeee :)....random-food-consumption...text...try-and-study...watch more Televisionooosto(just because)...

Turns out its not so predictable...check out the wild quotient!!!! Eeeee...
*faints due to sheer hyper-activity..... not*

I like i like i likeeeeeee this. Sigh.
Whaaaa else can i go all go-gah over?
Oi, plans for the future?
No.
Umm, thoughts about the past?
Nu-uh.
Chocolate consumption?
Yaaaais. had the tiniest thinnest sliver of dark choco. (swoons. YUM)
and yes. i also kind of climbed a tree. in college.
it was fun you know...
getting back into the aaaaaa-this-makes-no-sense-mode.
plus, got my internal marks and they match what i had anticipated.
so all is good.

*breathes*
yes.
Now back to Swift and some major apologies!!
(but the blog called oooooooooout to me J.Swift. it did!!!...)
lala. whatever :D

Songs, eh?
*looks around for inspiration*
Oh yeah...to celebrate V being back in town (YAY)

Hit it ------Franklin! :)

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you

While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part
Oh, how I love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

(Chorus)

My darling believe me, (believe me)
For me there is no one but you!
Please love me too (answer his pray)
And I'm in love with you (answer his pray)
Answer my prayer now babe (answer his pray)

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me (oooooooooh)

Theme Blue!

The only semi-interesting thing my cell is capable of is changing its 'theme'. Now ive made it a pretty some-sea-in-the-world blue. Pretty.

Have also discovered some alarming truths!

-any poem which starts with a 'red cheeked giant' does not go down well with an audience. any audience.
-people in chennai have a scheme which gives them 500 free national sms's. people in delhi are deprived. :(
-its a lil tough to be honest to people you're too close to. also especially hard to be unbiased. (i already knew that but its been reinforced)
-i dont really like talking on the phone that much. unless of course its ahem calling. in which case, its super hard to erase that grin from my face.
-Y is a supportive friend even with his tendency to sigh/gush/talk ONLY about how great it feels to be madly in love. R, you be lucky girl! :D
-writers block feels funny. a writers block that limits itself to 'good' writing is terribly unfunny.
-i need to finish ALL my course books by Sunday which is *counts on fingers* about 5 days away.
-FF keeps invading my dreams. Whats alarming? Let me rephrase. FF keeps invading my dreams.
-on a completely different topic, i hate my naps getting interrupted. :D

and on that randoohhhm note, i shall pirouette away for lack of anything better to do!
Toodles y'all. *waves to computer screen*

ps-i love Big Bang Theory! :P

pps-since you've stuck around to read ALL this ...quick question...how many times must a person come in your dream until he/she is officially your crush? ....:P
*bahahah*....so strange be words. so full of meaning! *click*