Suns Day

How would I explain the sunshine blossoms?
The tinkling laughter provoked
The giggles frothing in recent memories
The skipping pace of the unfamiliar rhythm

because in telling others it would make more sense.
I keep my silence even as I speak.

Maybe?

The drafts folder seems to be growing
Attended one of those magical seminars that could hold my interest.. even felt compelled to go and speak to the writers... Good stuff...
and here I can't go beyond the first act of that melodious plotless play...
If only I could ravage writing out of my own reality.. now that, would be fun :)

Happy 2011 ketchup

Speaking of milestones.. The seed is beginning to sprout out through the ground
The journey has begun.. and I know the more car-miles I rack up.. the faster this motor will travel too...
To not lose the clarity
To all actions that have a positive intent

There you have it.. Resolutions

The Universal Problem, me thinks

One of the interesting things about life is that almost all of us, it appears, know it all.
We know when to shut up and when we should speak out
We know those who give us good tingles and those who give out unpleasant vibes
(of course that changes with time.. but at a given moment.. we know who feels 'right')
We know subtlety is good and being garish is bad (but our Idea of the two differ)
We know a good thing from a bad
We know a good person from a not so well intentioned person (towards us)
We may even know edible mushrooms from poisonous ones

SO why is it that we keep banging our heads on the same wall?
Expectations
Why do I expect when I know it reduces joy? (AOL, Childrens course, 2000)
Why do I expect when I know no one owes me anything and what I do for others is out of my free will (Learning, Since 2000)
Because I know that If I don't expect from people.. that makes me invincible (Click for definition by Dictionary.com) *grins...no I am Not being paid by them!*
If I don't expect
-nothing will surprise me.. reciprocation May make me happy.. ungratefulness will leave me untouched
Well thats it actually... its a one-step all-encompassing benefit.
And it can be applied to EVERY relationship in your life... no exceptions.
Neki kar, dariya mein daal (not to be confused with the indian spice dal)
Do good and chuck it in the river
ie. Don't expect anything to come of the effort you put in
also can be used to simplify relationships
Give your all if that is what makes you happy... but don't expect. Don't expect.
Its not because you're a doormat who is only good to give.. Give if it makes you happy... but if you truly want to stay happy.. Do not.. Do not *I beg you* Do not expect anything in return.

Now see I know all that
I have the key to permanent consistent round-the-clock happiness
Why is it then so hard to practice? eh?
solve that puzzle for me baby!
Solve that and not sudoku
Solve eeeeeeet.
Please

warm fog

I wrote on msword.. quite forgot how unforgiving blogger is to 'copy paste' instructions.
You would have liked to read it... I poured out a red hue of my current state of soul.
I'm sure I'll have a better (different?) understanding of the same later.. Almost positively more clarity... but clad as I am in soft numbness at the moment.. it was probably one of my more balanced pieces.
I'm a creature of habit.. I hope to encourage the good I practice habitually and decrease to the point of extermination anything which is not-so-positive.
I resolve to keep the clean.. shining bright.
Happy New Year to come...
kisses

Agar Socha Jaaye...

I haven't moved out, changed cities, or even switched my career choice.. A real shocker considering I've always thought myself to be a restless indecisive soul..
To have stuck in such an efficient leech-like manner to Literature, Delhi and the parental abode.. Interesting :)

SOoooo what has evolved?
-Realization of the self and other beautiful things :)
-Application (attempts at and work towards)
-Figure (muahahaha)
-Degree Status (God Willing)
-Phone and Phone cover (piNNNNk)
-Geographical distance from loved ones

I guess enough has changed... as is natural..
Only its not just as obvious.
SO its not as easy to pin down and ruminate over.. *yawn*
Today was... :)
Anyway... haha... aaah. I like the texture of these thoughts..
The giggles bubble over..
taaa...
Ps- VERY excited about the Jane Austen Book Club!
Thankeeee Shwuti who forwarded the mail... Thankeeee Same-Name friend for founding it :)

Jawaani ke din...

Post band baaja baraat and a bidaai.. I sit and type on.
The sister has been packed off and it sinks in Less each day that she and I no longer share our fathers' name.
Bahoot saara pyaar to the beautiful newlywed
Yup.. It'll be a while before I can write about something else.
Thanks for sticking around ya'll :)