Blog-Fears

You know something I've never really been able to digest?

Yes, of course, hot chilly potato sticks... as yesterdays binge(!) proved.

But in a more intangible sense...

I've never fully come to terms with the fact that what I TYPE here will/may

have some TANGIBLE impact on my 'real' relationships.

For the longest time I thought my readership was nil so 

what did I do?

Being unaware in my ditzy universe of google

(who led all happy curious folk RIGHT to this blog).. 

I would blog about Everyone. Honestly(more or less), but in the MOMENT.

Dangerous eh?

So for the people I wasn't bumping into everyday... it became a meter of gauging how

I felt for them.

But what I wrote was a feeling of bitterness that lasted about 7 seconds and I 'published'

out of a false sense of rebellion.

The blog became a means to hurt potential relationships.

Thankfully, No lasting harm but TONS of baggage.. one I had to eventually sift through.

Yuck.

Ever come face to face with your own pettiness?

It aint pretty.

I guess in the current scenario where most of us spend 2-6 hours in virtual pastimes... a blog becomes a vital tool of communication.

Of opinions, of respect, of disrespect, of ones 'current state of mind'

More effective than twitter even.

Certainly more controversial, my experience says.

Ultimately I'm getting quite S-I-C-K of facebook.

Don't go on about 'privacy options' etc.

I've tried them all but the sheer PRESSURE of deciding who stays ON the limited profile, OFF it, what material they CAN have access to.. its EXHAUSTING.

and Pointless.

Just so you know friend-lies.. don't be surprised if one day you can't 'search' me out.

A-lllll-most sick of it for good.

Almost.

Toodles and Much Love.

*smack*