Gold ka coin dena... ok..note chalega

I can't boast of lying around like greenyellow lizards sunbathing on the lawns.. nor can I make up stories about giggle sessions and boytalks... what I may like to bookmark
-early morning laughter and plodding to class
-homer simpson humor
-J ka samosa.. J ki elaichi wali chai :)
-self deprecating humor
-the silence in the class
-fog swirling around trees
-unexpected tears of laughter
a flavor you dislike.. and one surprising day.. laugh all day to.
the high and low points in this moody painting have all been characterized by rolling-on-the-floor, whiny, questioning, absurd, unwilling, desperate, cackling laughter.. one, two, all, a few.
its not what I'd Wanted per se.
its not what I'd been happy with.
somewhere along the way I've learned a lot more than 4 semesters crammed together could pour into me. I've learned to live a little and laugh a lot. With people I'd never met before.. through the whiny journey I didn't expect to carry much on from this. But heck, its not been all bad. And I have a suspicion.. I could have done a lot worse!
cheers to decisions life imposes on us
cheers to making the freaking best of it :)
Learning all the way
Singing all the while
*wink*

navambar ka maheena

Hello Ji :)
I wont comment on the time gap if you dont..okay?
I see myself getting a wee bit more frequent on this forum though.
A couple of things..among many.. that I feel the need to see typed out.
First and foremost.
-The WEDDING. with the countdown having begun and the aspirations of weightloss not totally a dream :).. Im happy but a little apprehensive. wary? no.. im just super busy. dont ask me with what though. I Just AM. shopping. trials. phonecalls. invites (okay, need to start on those). shopping. trials. shopping. trials. dont think its a coincidence that Trials is following Shopping for me. Me no likey shopping. Whatever Sw, sue me.. we've already decided you're gonna shop for my wedding.. and yes, I'll teach our kids Kafka. Yes yes.. i know you can do both.. but really.. face it, I'll have more fun doing it :D

-NET. so Im giving it out of sheer curiosity me thinks. Its the national entrance test without which I may not teach in India. Which means all that padhai in Masters will be for... nuzzing.
whatawaste! But of course I will qualify... one day. The idea is to get there... eventually :)
Plus the UGC is taking out all these lovely new guidelines.. let me break it down..
No Phd= No teaching
Only issue... its in December.. and we all know what I'll be busy doing then... (hint. Shopping.trials. Shopping.trials.... Attending the big fat humongous KASHMIRI WEDDING..oh yeahhh)

-Other etc Weddings. seems like the whole world is getting married.. luckily by december I'll have enough clothes to support an entire family of high maintainence 19 year old girls. See Im 22 now.. Im waaaaaaaay beyond this. (tehe.. secretly goes and shops some more)

-FrAAnds. I like em you know. Been conveniently blaming fb for forgetting birthdays..muahahha. no but really.. miss the reminders.. oh fb.. *sob sob*.. but ill be seeing most of them soon enough.. joy. happy budday funti by the way. i loooooooove you :D
your gift awaits............... if u read this blog *cackles*

SO today kids we spoke about love, (Weight)loss and canada.
read bw the lines please.
I love u guys..but that doesnt make my love easy or cheap.
It makes me one hell of a generous soul
BOOYAH :D
*muahsieeez*
Doncha take me love for granted babsies.. because Ill never quite forget a Linda Goodman quote defining Leo women...
"Here's to you and here's to me and here's to love and laughter. I'll be true as long as you, not a single moment after."
I have a feeling memory serves because I agree..
Youhavebeenwarned moochhooooos ;)
Ps- Im taurean.. but.. well.. I can still agree!

because you wonder about choices...

I have a choice.
I could either focus on a perceived flaw in someone else
Or
Be grateful for the many beautiful gifts today has showered

I could point my finger and wrinkle up my nose in distaste
Or
I could join my hands and pray I never hurt anyone the way they almost did me

The miracles, help, love never cease
May this Diwali illumiate your life... Hari Om

I was surprised to find profundity buried deep inside my own writing.. hidden in word documents that will never experience the glory of publication :)
I haven't written in ages..and no, not (just) the blog.. written fiction that is.
I enjoy going back to my own words..spinning a life I've never lived but (successfully, I think) conceived. Its not highbrow but I think it repeats question I think up..and sometimes answers I later find :)

I'm impatient to write something happy.
I'm impatient for some permanent happiness
Impatient enough to rock back and forth on the computer chair
Still balanced enough to not throw pillows around the room

Consider me restless for some peace
Yes. I know that doesn't sound quite right
May you be blessed with the peace I am aching for :)

Yakety Yak

Maybe I'll tell you a strange thing. I'm growing into the understanding that life is not about looking for those 4 leaved clovers and magical rainbows... but its not for the reasons I presumed I would. Its not because of heartbreak, cynicism or lack of faith.. Ironically enough... its BECAUSE I have faith.
Only what I had faith in Then was the hope of finding that elusive clover if I looked hard enough in the garden (Blyton ruined me for realism :) ).. What I believe in now is a different purpose because even if I Do find that clover and it grants me ONE wish... that wouldn't come close to making me permanently happy... Fact- I was looking for a more stable solution and one that went a little deeper... Oddly enough it too was "Seek and you shall find"
but When I changed What I was looking for.. I got my answers :)

Once Upon A Time this blog was about noting down the changes in my life.. mapping them as it were.. I feel its been out of the loop when really major changes Have been happening.. Destiny presented me with a path.. My choice was to take it... my Love, keeps me going.
Its because each time I come close to what the path Really does..the part of me it touches.. how it awakens me to my responsibilities..duties...solutions..Each time I close in on how this has truly changed my life... I am filled with inexpressible gratitude towards .. everyone. Because I must have done something right to be blessed with this...and for me to do that something right...many many *maaaaany* people, words, ideas, actions must have all contributed.. So I want to thank you all today.
You have contributed to my happiness regardless of the circumstances in which we've come into contact. I am eternally grateful for that... and I thank you.
I wish you all deep love and happiness.
God Bless

Finally, the blog has been (truly)updated :)
Also academically... things have certainly not built up as expected really.. at least not according to the Plan.. but you know what, *shrugs*, thats just life (and really ill researched work on my behalf :P..whoops)..but regardless, there is still an impulse to tug on a different string, just for a little bit, and play with a different subject *maaaaybe for a little while*
Like
Indian History
Archaeology
Astronomy *not so much, I just like the idea of staring at the night sky*
Astrology (for kicks)
But just take a break from the whole Literature as a career path..booo..
I'm open to toying with Scriptwriting, Directing, Painting.. anyone interested in paying an amateur to handle their meaty professional project? :)
Ahh... get back to me here if yooou ARE :)
No link...just the blog.

But yeah..wee bit frustrated with picking up books like medicines and just swallowing them whole... but I AM totally recapturing the thrill with Catch 22... my daily indulgence (not prescribed ie. )... fantastic with the potential to be depressing (what with all the...content and all) BUT saved each time by its sheer ridiculous quality.. I mean..Bravo.
You may all have read it when you were fourteen.. let me enjoy my happy time :)
God Bless and may all your Positive dreams come truuuuueeee :D

One more inky page Lived

I know I haven't really kept my (awesome)readerbase updated
So how about, instead, I tell you my plans for the future? eh? or accurately...the Present :)

Courting, maintaining, surrounding self with Peace.
Internally.

God Bless
Love is the best kind of healing
Have a loving day

The title of the blog changing signifies growth in my beliefs
I am grateful for all the knowledge
Hari Om