Ever wanted to imitate the assumed lifestyle of someone else?

Age 7-Believed it to be the height to 'coolness' to eat maggie while watching TV

Age9-Replaced above with the healthier alternative of chasing older sister(and friends) on bike, sensitivity to privacy wasnt my forte

Age13-Rolling up sleeves and hitching up skirts caught my willing gaze (weight appropriate dressing hadnt struck grey cells)

Age16-Pining in love for someone clearly not interested was indulged in...(often)...Under the heading of-'There is some pleasure in deliberate and unending (also self-inflicted) mental agony'

Age17-Pictured myself as the warrior who must get through the Math paper or die trying..i did go through a spiritual death that 2 years of studyin Lit has been trying to heal...but some scars are too deep to be completely forgotten...

Age18-Thought it 'uber-cool' to sparkle like a pink diamond with matching belts, rings, rubber bands...shall i go on?

Age19-Waited anxiously for maturity/wisdom/the ability-to-look-composed-under-pressure to shower itself on me...

Age19.9 (a week before i turn 20)-Now-Wanted to be a person who is comfortable being alone and with a circus...someone who knows what to say and also tries to keep some things to herself..(inspite of it being hard)...Someone who likes walking around alone with (only) the warm sun as company and when tired of it all, seeks out a good book to help out with the gradual process of acquiring knowledge and understanding philosophy...Someone whose free to do everything and doesnt screw it up..Who has her families faith and lives up to it...Voila!
The PugsieT of today saw the reflection in the mirror and liked what she saw...
Not only rare, but also a milestone...The days before a birthday are always the best

Sometimes, when i'm not too busy whining about the world,
I find my life fantastic.