I need a plan. A life-attitude-makeover!!!!!!! Something Permanent! Say, at least a 6 month agenda. Well? The plan to liberation is in the works...kinda being carried out. But i still sense a gap. A moment to think. I still have time to breathe. Now that cant possibly be right. There is a compulsive need to shove in more. Mental physical and time consuming plan. Yes, thats what i need!......
-Have left chocolate for a year...come jan 1st 2009 and i will bite into it again..but till then...that takes care of my spiritual growth! ...the will power drive is extremely secure.
-Attended 2 family functions in the last 2 days... Got two more coming on saturday and sunday... that wraps up social-familial responsibility eh?
-the academia should be a lil pleased with my endeavours.... have massive plans to finish 'Things fall apart' and 'Heart of Darkness' by tonight. (the possibility of critically reading one more text has also been casually thought of)
-the 'no-expectations' thing came to a screeching 'oh f***' yesterday and today. :( . Im just not built for 'no expectations'. Maybe less expectations will suffice?
Maybe its time i (finally) start my novella!!!!!!!! .....i know someone i once read about said that she used to write from 4 am to 6 am everyday and then lead a 'normal' life. (normal ie. wake about a dozen kids up....dress em...feed em...send them off to school...pick em up...clean the house...basic gist... ouch)
Why cant i? Why cant it be me who proudly declares (three years from now) that it 'just took a revelation while typing out a vent-blog to come up with the idea'...then modestly wait for the applause to die down!!!!!!!!!!! ooooooooooo! Fabulous! Dreams sure make life look easy! :D
Now all it needs......is........
1-plot
2-story
3-time to work on above
4-incentive
The first two ill rummage out of the recesses of my mind. The last i have in HUGE amounts and the third was what i desperately wanted to use up. There is really, then, no time to worry about the debate over 'less' expectations v/s 'no' expectations. No time at all! Plus, then this blog can be about my literary struggles as a postcolonial writer. (well, technically i would be postcolonial na?) Ha! a direction for the blog as well! *hugs self for brilliant plan*
This totally HAS to be implemented. (i know it SOUNDS a lil Kinsella with overreaching ambition...also like Greek tragic heroes then...but *shoo's thought away*....)
Will simply cut into Gossip Girl/Big Bang Theory/Seinfeld hours!
*pray for me* Please! :D
2 comments:
you left chocolate for a year?? :O
you got some will power woman!! :O :O :O
need a plan!! god i make so many of them and then the usual drill :P
"god! it is indeed humbling to suck on so many different level"-sheldon yet again!!
peace!
blogrolled you :)
PS: i shall pray and when thou becomes a writer, thou shalt include my name in the foreword! :P
lol...if the book DOES see daylight someday...then guess who's gonna be the most surprised? :D
though your prayers are appreciated! hehe :P
Ps- Sheldon is priceless!
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