I want to write some honest 'is-s'.... you know, the ones on facebook....i'm never really able to spill my guts and write what i am is-ing, or whatever is the appropriate term for flopping around and thinking...being... existing!
------ is
1.thinking of chucking her phone outta the window, but it has her music ..so she won't
2.considering getting a life-change and leaving the material world to slump down next to some ice-covered mountain... but not growing a beard
3.assuming that there has to be a reason that one is born. because God can't be perverse right?
4.hoping that dinner will be yummy...
5.liking the idea of hating the world. seems fairly just and equal... also, well deserved
6.tired of feeling guilty because of her inability to miss even one day of college for theatre.
7.STILL feeling like a major ice-princess/cold hearted bitch for not being there for her dramsoc
8.considering asking some kind soul for a sandwich... but since all faith has been lost in kind souls, it's proving harder than expected
9.waiting for all the decisions to make themselves up and come to her in a clear map with size 14 font and Arial Black style.
10.demanding of life that it work out to the best of her advantage...
Whew, and they were the randomest is-ez.
I think i should go eat something and then chuck my phone in a corner till the year 2009.
and yeah, cut the TV time too.
haha. resolutions they be!
Finally ------ is missing all her friends who genuinely care and don't just pretend like they do.
Fuck third person. I miss all you people who care! i know you're busy and i am too.
Wish we had more time to just hang out and act like stray puppies let loose...or hyenas ...whatever fits the occasion. I miss you all so much! :(
It sucks to meet people who are fake and icky... sucks. i don't like!
Can't we all just gang up and shove them down a well or something?
Please. Well, at the very least don't hate me cuz i'm unable to say 'screw off' to my conscience...which is the only thing making me feel sane these days... weird, cuz i know you understand.. cuz i know you care enough to know that all this is really important to me.
That's why i miss you all. cuz, even when you wouldn't do the same thing yourself, you know and 'get' why i still have to.
Love, very much.
6 comments:
yes.
no wonder.
you DO write awesomely.
yeah........
I know...
Ive overused the term awesome for you.
but there's no other word that fits you as perfectly
huh?
not posting OR replying?
whered blogger princess go?
I'm trying to decipher who the fake ones are here.
Help, perhaps??
where are you????
im back!!! :)
deluded...awww!!!!!...zii concern is very very nice :D
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