The technology around me is simply FAILING....
elder sis 'accidently' deleted WordWeb...arghhh
cant reply to mails on gmail...arrrghhhhh
and NOW silvers screen isnt working........
cannot, cannot work like this.
and no, by screen not working...i DO NOT mean the friggin screen light!
i mean the bloody screen!!!!
no words. no reading new messages. no light. no nothing.
all sucked away by some evil in the air.
argh argh argh.
and the world comes crashing downnnnnn........... even A noticed, and he barely knows me.
noticed that i was whining like a brat who wanted a better life.
well, that was the jist anyway.
How very BLAH. S texted. gonna be back on 7th! 7th! thats like 2 weeks from NOW!!!
:(.....miss her....miss the chats and the blahs and bloohhs and the empathy
:(:(...sometimes, you think life is rushing by and you cant feel it
but other times, like now, you feel that you're rushing past stuff while stuff is rushing past you
and nothing makes sense anymore
neither actions nor beliefs nor people
nothing
and then you're stuck somewhere b/w nowhere and wherenow
suddenly, not a good place to be
cuz you're tugged in directions you have no clue about
and being pulled in either one is not bold but stupid....
when everything happens at once and theres no time to take it in
my bet would be, its time to start praying
and whatever works. if its meditation or counting beads. or indulging in wild spurts of dancing and bhajans. whatever gives you time. peace. space. solace.
extremely personal. extremely you. the essence needs some rest.
it needs to be alone to talk to itself.
words are normally balm. but sometimes 'normally' isn't enough.
sharing is such a strange thing, making you put down stuff here when you could just as easily pen it down in a diary. and even if its not shared with everyone, in some small way it reaches out into the universe. glimmers. creates its own invisible pattern. risks being battered. and then makes its own journey, sometimes with people around and sometimes perceived as without.
without and with. alone yet not lone. solitary and together. blinking forever.
in your reach and out of sight.
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"...sharing is such a strange thing, making you put down stuff here when you could just as easily pen it down in a diary. and even if its not shared with everyone, in some small way it reaches out into the universe."
Thats soo true:).
And w.r. to older post. Legally blonde is soo funny. Chick flick. Yes. But also funny. Huge fan of Reese after that.
And hey I have never seen a gay guy:(. It is a different matter how I would react if I did see one. As, Seinfeld put it "Not that there is anything wrong with it".
ended up catching Reese in Vanity Fair and Legally Blonde the same day...she totally rocks them both! :)
and wasnt Seinfeld publically accused of being politically incorrect?...anyway, i love him regardless.
Oh! Hell. I wrote that comment at 2.00 AM. So my grammar has gone for a toss.
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