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"Here i am
This is me
Theres nowhere else on earth
i'd rather be..."

Thats what life is about. When you start filtering life to include only the good in what you let affect you then you're probably allowing more joy to enter your life.
I no longer want someone to sit on their computer and read the words i write. Absolutely no one.
Its almost too easy to want to need someone (not only this in this one context) and if you really think about it- we already have most of what we really want but its just comes to us looking a littel different. If you want a story with humour, dont always expect an Archie or 'Crack up while you read' (fictional title) to fall into your lap...you may be handed a Wodehouse and even learn to enjoy that..never completely realizing that you've got what you wanted. its been in your hand all along... One night after a talk with 'intelligent older person' i realized that what you crave from life may be already a part of your life. Good conversation, incredible friends, smart co-workers, inspiring individuals have all been a part of my mundane routine for so long that ive actually been overlooking them! How ridiculously inappropriate. Brains, inclination, a reasonably fit heart, an inquiring mind, inspired spiritual living have also been present for a good part of these 20 years (there were phases when sense was temporarily under construction though).
All that we think we're missing is that societal 'tag'.
And if you still feel like there is someone out there that you ought to be with and he/she is completely oblivious to yur revelation, consider the possibility that you're mistaken and give life a break! like someone real smart commented not too long ago..focus on other things. The other wonderful things you could be doing. In fact, at the risk of being though a plagiarist i recall that over 2 years ago i gave someone the exact same advice. She was older but not much wiser. I demanded that she explore her own potential before she went around linking yet another person to herself (like an incredibly expensive mini clutch bag)..she didnt listen and i thought the last 2 years had been enough time to 'get' who i am. But today i think i'll disagree. No one really knows what they're doing (not for too long anyway) and all we can do is keep our feet on the ground..our head held high..our shoulders in their 'right' posture...face the world with a smile and do what feels good and gives us joy. period.

ps-New Delhi isn't New York but it too allows you to be whoever it is that you really are. No exceptions.