Of Life

New Mission in Life- Get over with about a million articles and not mope around (OR have random crushes).
That sums up the last few days. Finally spent night at Funtiz. V and S(nA) watched Andaaz Apna Apna while i dozed off round midnight. S(nA) knew ALL the dialogues. Seriously! I could not love her more! (always wonder where i'll EVER find people like V and S(nA) and funt AGAIN..i mean people im SO comfortable with that i can randomly kiss/cuddle/fall in lap of when my mood demands and all the reaction i'll get is a pause as they make place!!!)...It wasn't one of those wild ones but we managed to catch up with M, M-tree and T-nya over momos and near fish market (saw dead/alive/almost-dead fish and didnt feel a thing. maybe a weird kinda fascination. no revulsion, even though im veg. strange right?)
Later that night, when S(nA) and moi went rushing into the park (very very pak trip reminiscent) and clambered on to swings meant for 8 year olds (stuffing our bums in tiny metal seats and whirling around like mad......fun!)...of course we ran into V's friend and promptly ignored him in our dash-around-park :D
Sometimes, i love to be a kid. 20 going on 2. (until the adolescent hormones kick in, making me like curly mops and grunge looks based on semi-impressive conversations..hmm)
have surrounded self with everything but what i really want and people i really wanna be with.
Guess am abstaning from more than chocolate (only this would be a longer fast and for mental health...am not even sure WHO im talkin about anymore!)... I think rather than predicting love trends for an entire generation (like carrie), am more of less stuck on my own. Narcissism or just a need to decrypt self for an easier existence.. that, i'll never know.
God, im such a hypocrite. Just told lovestruck-friend that 'its not an end till its happy' and that she must hold on to her romance, cuz' 'true love' will happen. Its so much easier to predict happiness (in the conventional sense) for someone else ...for eg, i know without a shadaow of a doubt that Sw will be SUPER happy when R comes back and they'll be those amazing couples who are nice to everyone but have this alternate secret universe where they prance around...aww...its such a great phase and i know they REALLY like each other...wish she would enjoy it more.(i know she wants to)
S and moi are in the same place. (no explanations needed. ever)
I wonder really what its like to not worry or wonder or think or just not write about what i think.
Its extraordinary how very argh inducing life is. Oh, today we very nearly made a plan to go to Pune....bike rides...train journey...an adventure. Unfortunately we clean forgot about legal problems when you need to transfer tickets...(Which you cant legally do). SO tomorrow the three of them leave and i can text them gbye! :) By the end of this day i can easily say im
tired
a little sad
somewhat happy
head-achy
blink-prone
a drop optimistic
hazy

The End

(If this post is the last i ever write, due to circumstances beyond my control, i think the picture that i painted of life is a little darker than it need strictly be. But after all, i live for drama and it does run in my veins.)
:D