Lookin' back

In the last 148 posts, i found some things that still make some sense...
Here goes walk down blog-memory-lane. (whoosh, and we're flying back in time on a pigeons back)

Sept9 2007-
Context-Unknown (blames bad memory)

"deciding what you want is one of the hardest things because you're never really sure of how much you can sacrifice how unselfish you really are ...never truly certain about how much you can give before you want something back..."

Dec14 2007-
Context- Perhaps unhappy and bubbling over with in-your-face optimism as a result! :)

"sometimes so intent on denial we are that we refuse to accept that we are miserable....thats a terrible fate for if you dont know your sad....how will you ever search for happiness?....this misery might even become a permanent fixture of your life....so heres a cure....which should possibly be written down in book form....heavily marketed and.....then bought by you to make me a millionare..but i'l tell you for free....

1st step-accept that you're sad.....face your biggest fears and admit that your NOT HAPPY!
2nd step-give it some thought....find out exactly WHY....regardless of how ugly it sounds....(even in your own head)
3rd and final step-search for happiness.....moments, if possible.....make happy things happen....surround yourself by activities that will possibly give you joy.....embrace life in all forms.....(hehe)......live love ....get hurt!!....feel alive....make mistakes....have FUN!....indulge in romance no matter how short-lived......never cheapen yourself or you'll only feel dirty later......enjoy..."

Jan13 2008-
Context-Mixed signals maybe...

"people take words so seriously....sometimes too seriously.....n others.....take them too lightly.....when you're rejecting someone......they wont take you seriously.....but when you're flirting with them....its like you automatically carved your eternal devotion and love on stone....."

and finally .....

March30 2008-
Context-Extricating self mentally from a harmful pseudo-relationship. (very vivid)

"talking to him will put me at risk of losing that sense of self as one which is worthy of love, respect and certainly not one which will tolerate being clubbed under the wonderful heading of the many 'chicks' that I’m a 'hit' with.....fuck you mister!...I deserve better! and nothing is ever going to change that!up yours!"

Some are angry, some contemplative... but they're all me. And the best part? The last one actually stopped me from making the same mistake twice, just as i was slipping into delusion it got me 100% back to reality. Once bitten twice shy only works if you remember the sting of the bite, thanks to blogging-i do. YAY. :D