I dont know if i should be more disappointed in myself or in others. Perhaps in myself for (once again) believing in others. Moron that i am. (kicks self)
W makes it so easy... asks me. So why do you expect things? As if i dont ask myself that!...all the time!!!!!!.......
Eyes hurt from exertion. Almost murmuring gently that they've done their job...now rest. Rest. Rest. Rest. I plod on mechanically...typing. Hoping some coherance will emerge. :p
Tired. Tired. Tired. (very)
So many illusions that one has to fight against. Ones that people want you to believe (i'll be there for you....tadadum)....Ones you want yourself to believe (the world is a great place and good things happen to good people).....Ones that you rarely wake up to (splash! they sting like salt sprinkled over a fresh wound)...
Which reminds me. somethings changing. seem to care less with every passing day. Strange right? For someone who cares so much to care less 'with each passing day'. Dont know if its the disappointment in everyone (are my standards too high?) or if its just crumbling-cookies (inevitable). But its happening. Oh well. Oh well.
Im also hooked to conversation. Oh well. Oh well. Guess its less obviously harmful in the short run. Of long run, i refuse to speak and embrace denial. See, another self-imposed even acknowledged illusion. *buries head under sand*
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and thats the way the cookie crumbles!!
boy does it feel good to be back!! :D
sorry for the long hiatus..was caught up!
conversation-with-self phase na..happens happens!!
btw..me gave u an award and a tag! bunk the tag..take the award!
peace!
yay!!!!!!!...i got awarddd????.....:P:P:P
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