Twinkling memories

Post celebrating the Birthday of the loved one.. a trip was immediately planned for that night.
ofcourse impossible for me with the next few days planned solid and stretching at the seams with my ridiculous attempts to squeeze more time out of every hour. ok i exaggerate, mildly.
but they were sadly planned and packed... my days that is. while my loved ones were literally planned and semi-packed to take off into the wild night on a bouncy bus.

why bouncy you ask?
Experience.
an experience to be precise. one that was swaying far beyond the reach of planned college trips.
it exists in a limbo.. at a time when i was completely responsibility-free :D.. full of young-adult enthusiasm... but naturally wrapped in the familiar need-for-security that made me lug my backpack (and sanitiser) with me at every pit stop till we reached the end of our *very long* 11 hour bus ride..
we had the worst seats. literally.
well maybe the top of the bus would have been worse but there were no seats there. so...
3 of us cushioned together and eagerly waiting for the 2 young guys next to us to walk up front for 5 minute smoke-breaks so we could immediately expand into their seats for blissful catnaps.
so uncomfortable. so deeeeeply uncomfortable. and yet, the most fun friend-trip ever.
we trekked up an unknown hill... reached an unfathomably beautiful waterfall..
immediately escaped from our sneakers and jumped into the bone chilling water...
the photos captured are extremely unflattering but the most honest ever... happy excited bursting-with-joy faces...

i always look back on this trip with a smile specially reserved for loved ones with whom you simply cannot explain the relationship... whatatrip! so as i see beaaaautiful pictures of the trip possibly currently still on... a part of me is with them. in a way indescribable.. i too am watching the night sky littered with hundreds of glittering stars..

How swiftly time does fly...

As usual time is impressing me by its ability to swiftly take me from august to november..
from november to march and march to now... but those are reminisces of a personal nature..
and here.. on this sort-of-public blog.. they are only brief narrations.

for those mildly interested.. I have started maintaining, on my phone, various expressions of what i Really want to say/type... but due to many many many reasons.. i don't permit them a voice.
so screech they must.. and screech they do in ink.

and no ugly scrawl.. just various thoughts that come from drastically new experiences.
you know? the very fundamental purpose of a blog?

anyway...
HAPPY DAY OF BIRTH to one SPECIAL ONE!!!
May your days be filled with joy, just like your very being!!
kisses and all that.. more has been expressed and will continue to be expressed personally but it seemed okay to allow myself this little yelp of excitement !!
I've known her how long now? 10 wonderful years!
filled with joy, petulance, love, friendship and a very worthy shoulder.. a true shoulder <3 p="">how precious these friendships become as we age and they too evolve!

because we change.. as new experiences beckon us... and with some associations we find that we no longer swim on the same wavelength.. we are bobbing too far from each other to "connect" the "same way" anymore... some of these happen in a very drastic incident that reveals that we're very different "suddenly" from who we were... but we didn't change overnight.. it was small steps in different directions or one staying in the same place that usually does it...
I've heard so many acquaintances now lament at the loss of a precious aged girl-friendship... all the more precious because of the many memories built together on a foundation of youth, joy and laughter that it hurts when they fall apart (more so dramatically in one swipe)... no one seems to be immune to it.. its nice when one can re-connect and be amiable but for that moment a special configuration of personal experiences have to come about mysteriously to both in order to let that happen.. and it does happen to some with some for some and its lovely when it does.. theres a sigh of relief and a true feeling of goodwill..

Goodwill.. something i have recently recognized as precious.. not for any material gain but the peace is gives to the experiencer and the one for whom it is felt (presumably :))
to feel it is a gift... in itself.. from us to us..
to receive it.. is also a gift.. another one to be thankful to the Universe for..
because you (or i) may have 100's of "friends" on Facebook or "followers" on instagram.. or i don't know "buddies?" on some other still-to-be-discovered site, but how many genuinely wish you well?
how many extend beyond the apathetic "like" to care how you are.. feel.. what you need and how they can help?
maybe a handful among the 20 odd actually in your current social circle?

and this feeling of wishing-well need not be limited to only those you are currently socially connected to.. it expands to those who, at some point, brought joy to your life or a smile on your face... essentially it does come back to us :) all the more precious when something has been resolved..
resolution is powerful, cathartic... allowing more peace into our life..

as always.. deeply apologetic for any pain caused at any time to anyone.. intentionally or not..
wishing well.. and not holding on to anything that may have been caused to me intentionally or not..
<3 p="">lots of love and in celebration of a Special One and Special moments of togetherness
May peace be experienced by us All <<3>
To True Freedom (imaginary toast raised :))